Actor Shia LaBeouf is most known for his role in the Transformers movies and Honey Boy which was sadly inspired by his own personal life.
In a recent interview with Bishop Robert Barron of the Word on Fire Catholic Ministries, LaBeouf spoke about the dark moments he experienced before converting to Catholicism and his role in the upcoming film “Padre Pio.”
LaBeouf said that he met a man named Brother Jude while at a seminary researching the role. “He says well if you’re going to play P.O. you need to read the gospel,” He said.
It was during this time when LaBeouf was reading the gospels that he was also going through the darkest time in his life.
LaBeouf said, “I had a gun on the table. I was outta here.”
LaBeouf continued saying, “I didn’t want to be alive anymore when all of this happened. Shame like I had never experienced before — the kind of shame that you forget how to breathe. You don’t know where to go. You can’t go outside to get like, a taco… But I was also in this deep desire to hold on.”
During the interview, LaBeouf said his research, “stops being this prep of a movie and starts being something that feels beyond all that.”
LaBeouf continued by saying that He felt that God was “Drawing me away from worldly desires. It was all happening simultaneously. But there would have been no impetus for me to get in my car, drive up here if I didn’t think, ‘Oh, I’m gonna save my career,” he said.
LaBeouf explained, “It was seeing other people who have sinned beyond anything I could ever conceptualize also being found in Christ that made me feel like, ‘Oh, that gives me hope. I started hearing experiences of other depraved people who had found their way in this, and it made me feel like I had permission.”
In the interview with the Bishop, LaBeouf went on to say, “I had nowhere to go. This was the last stop on the train. There was nowhere else to go. In every sense, I know now that God was using my ego to draw me to him… It was seeing other people who have sinned beyond anything I could ever conceptualize also being found in Christ that made me feel like, ‘Oh, that gives me hope.’”
You can watch the full interview with Bishop Robert Barron of the Word on Fire Catholic Ministries below.